July 2nd, 2009
The days are undwinding rather quickly now. I feel like I blink, and it’s a new day. Kinda disappointing because in all honesty, things aren’t exactly what I thought they’d be.
This whole situation is difficult.. for the both of us. We don’t know where either of us stand no matter how much we want to believe we do. The fact of the matter is, being apart is a reality that we both just have to face whether we like it or not. All we can do is keep each other in our thoughts and prayers and be here for each other as much as possible. Our future together is not within our control anymore. We just have to move forward and take the bittersweet memories we’ve made, along with us… and never forget.
It’s hard, anticipating the loss of the one you love. Especially if you feel like some uncontrollable force is the one causing the pain. Being torn apart and suffereing certain consequences.. *sigh. Neither of us even want this, but we both know that one day, it will all be more than worth it.
Military life is no joke. If the pain that Michael and I are feeling right now, along with all the other military families, is the equivalent to America’s freedom.. then we should never take our freedom for granted. I can safely say that I’ve never been so overwhelmed with so many emotions, and neither has Mike. All we know is that we love each other, more than anyone could ever know or try to understand. And that’s all we’ll need to get us through this rough time in our lives.
So. This is what heartbreak feels like.
